Finding the calm

Tragedy unfolding

It was Wednesday, May 30. Until crawling into the SUV for the commute home, I was blissfully unaware of the multiple tragedies that scarred the day. Four people had been brutally murdered in Seattle. Three were patrons at Cafe Racer—one woman and two men—and the fourth was a woman simply trying to exit a parking lot. One man, an employee of the cafe, survived the attack and was at the hospital.

For 70 minutes, the airwaves were choked with details about the violence unleashed by what turned out to be the acts of a single, mentally disturbed man. For 70 minutes, I clung to the broadcaster's every word, hating what I was hearing, weeping for the loss of life but unable to turn off the radio.

Comfort zone

By the time I walked into a favorite local market in my home territory, I felt as limp as a well-worn rag doll. Cynthia, one of the store's florists who I had known for nearly 12 years, called out to me. Welcoming the distraction from my thoughts, I scurried over to the floral counter where Cynthia excitedly told me about a Gunnera plant (far left cell in the banner) she had found in a yard of a house in her neighborhood. As Cynthia drew a crude map on the back of a scrap of paper that pointed to the location of the house, she excitedly told me that the plant was two years younger and more than twice the size of the one she had and said, "You have to see this Gunnera," and telling me, with a note of surprise in her voice, that the owners used horse manure for fertilizer. I smiled.

After buying a few food items, I exited the store, but not before Cynthia again encouraged me to find the Gunnera plant and reminded me to get out of the car and walk to the house. Since I didn't have a physical address, an on-foot search would be necessary.

Finding the calm

A sigh of relief

Still weighed down by the commute and a layer of gloom, I searched for and found the house with the enormous Gunnera plant and when I walked up to the front yard and peered over the weathered gray fence felt my spirit lift.

A calm washed over me as I gazed upon the garden. The gloom was dispeled by the array of colors and how wonderfully the flora had been arranged. It was a much needed reminder that being immersed in nature relieves my stress. Although the memory of an act of horrendous human ugliness lingered, it no longer consumed me. The pagentry of nature did.

Finding the calm means something different for everyone. Some people play sports, some read books, some sing, some practice yoga or pump iron, some ride bicycles or horses, and some sit in silent contemplation. What matters is dialing back and shutting down the noise long enough to find the calm.

Another reminder

As I wrapped up composition of this story, a verse I wrote a year ago—one I intend to use as a message on tee shirts, cups, bags, etc.—rose to the forefront of my thoughts. It's an appropriate close to my story about finding the calm. The message is simple: Pause more, breathe deeply, live wisely.

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An interesting name, an interesting story continued

Epilogue

Weeks after that conversation, I went in search of Rachel's ancestor, John Brown, mainly because I wasn't sure if I was correctly recalling the man's place in history. John Brown was an abolitionist. I read through the Wikipedia account of the man who took a militant stance against slavery and died because of the actions he took in opposition to it. At the section that gave a short description of Brown meeting Harriet Tubman, I paused. Suddenly, a conversation that occurred weeks before was resurrected. Me, telling the story about a weathered barn with a secret passage, and Rachel, talking about a connection to a man who more than 100 years before spoke at a convention in Chatham, Ohio, about plans to make Kansas, not Canada, the end of the Underground Railroad. Coincidence?